Tell me what to do.
Tell me whats going to happen.
Tell me what will become of us.
Tell me when will things be alright.
Tell me, comeon' speak up.

drink up, baby down
mmm, are you in or are you out
leave your things behind
'cause it's all going off without you
excuse me, too busy you're writing your tragedy
these mishaps
you bubble wrap
when you've no idea what you're like

so let go, jump in
oh well, whatcha waiting for
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown
so let go, just get in
oh, it's so amazing here
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

it gains the more it gives
and then it rises with the fall
so hand me that remote
can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow

such boundless pleasure
we've no time for later now
you can't await your own arrival
you've 20 seconds to comply

so let go, jump in
oh well, whatcha waiting for
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown
so let go, just get in
oh, it's so amazing here
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

I should be studying now right?

I guess this is the scariest and werid dream i will ever have

I look ever at my watch and it was 2.30am in the morning
I was wearing a really short black,revealing and tight dress
With my make up on and the nicest & highest heels you can ever see
I grabbed my purse and cellphone
Someone came to pick me up
he smelled so good,so good looking,we made out

we headed to the club
i saw myself clubbing like nothing
flirting with guy after guy
being closer than close close with them
i was high on drugs
i was drunk

my face was red,red
i was having the time of my life there
having all kinds of flings and i loved it
making out with different guys all at the same time
it was than 5am in the morning
the same guy who i went to the club with came behind me gave me a hug
the next thing i knew,
i was in the hotel room.

Whats happening to me?
Fml.

oh....

i feel trapped,caged.
''help'' i screamed.

Him

I started being in a relationship with him since I was just one years old.
He was the person my parents would always rely on when they had trouble.
I grew up.
I became in a deeper relationship with him.
I started to rely on him more than anything.
He started to be my comfort.
My source of happiness.
The only one who listens and still does listen to me.
Calms me down when I was/am upset.
I grew up more. I started to part away from him.
I felt this constant pull that he was giving for me to come back.
I ignored it.
Bad things happened.
I didn’t enjoy meeting him anymore.
I didn’t rely on him anymore.
I realised what had happened.
I cried. I ask for forgiveness every night.
I was forgiven.
I relied on him again.
He became my source to happiness again.
The words he left for me , I begin to read every single day.
I started to talk to him every single morning afternoon and night.
He is with me now.
I meet him every sunday.
I’m so happy to be with him every sunday.
I love him.
He loves me more.
I wonder if you know him too?

Have you heard of, God?
His my father and I love him.

30 letters.
Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

So there i go..
#Letter 1,Cedric,Timothy,Kimberly,Annabelle,Stefanie.

Hey heartthrob. It has been 2 weeks since you've migrated to NewYork. I'm still trying to get used to this. I know i'm not very good with changes and adjustments. In fact,i'm really lousy at it. Trying to get used to life without you around.  Its seems boring not having you here,not fun. So do hurry come back,i cannot wait for sunday,cos you'll be back. Tehehehe. Well,thankyou for being there for me each time i needed you so much. i know i take you for granted at times. But you never complained. As difficult as i may be,you never got angry. How can someone like you actually put up with me? Someone with a really terrible attitude. You were always there for me each time i needed someone. Yipee. I'll stop here. (This isnt a private blog) ♥♥♥

Hey bumbletumble. Terrible you. You need a break from all those books at times! I know you'll never be able to see this. Cos its not meant for you to see. Hey Tim,look at how far we've came. I know this year isnt a really nice year for me. (you know why) Well thankyou. For all those scolding practically. i know it was hard on you,cos i dont really listen. But look! I did it! Heehee. Thankyou for all those pretty little thoughts and flowers. I know this is short,like i said before,its not private.  ♥♥♥

HEY
KIMBERLY
YOU
MORON
hi love. you are....the most horrible and disgusting person ever seen. But i dont know why,i love you to pieces.  ♥ the first time i saw you,how much i hated your guts. i thought we'll never be able to be friends. but who knows? ugly and pretty people could actually come together and be the best of friends. Awww...dont miss me,cos i know you are now. Heehee. HURRY COME BACK. *miserable faces* i'm not going to write long cos i'll go on and on all day. heehee. ♥♥♥

Oei,belle. i know you love bella to the max. Awww...how sweet of you. (: i'm quite sure she does too. tehehehe well,thankyou for being so awesome all these while! yay me! i know i can count on you. i know i have said this many many many many times. thankyouuuuuuu. heehee. (cant write too long,not private :p) love you! ♥♥♥

HEY PORK. I KNOW YOU LOVE ME. I KNOW YOU WILL GO GAGA SEEING YOUR NAME HERE,STEFANIE ONG. HEEHEE OEI. THANKYOU FOR BEING SO DEAR. ALL THOSE NONSENSE AND RUBBISH I HAVE TO PUT UP WITH. *SIGH* I PITY MYSELF. PLEASE,STOP BEING SO BLUR AND DUMB WILL YOU? HEEHEEHEE I KNOW YOU MISS ME AND YOU WANT TO SEE ME NOW. AND I THINK YOU WILL BE MUGGING NOW. THATS WHY YOU MISSED OUT YESTERDAY FUN! AWW MAN! I T WAS SO AWESOME. BUT YOU MISSED ME. YOU. MISSED. IT. HMPH. BUT I CAN ALWAYS GO WITH YOU AGAIN,HEEHEEHEEHEE ♥♥♥

I LOVE MY DAD (Y)

Thanks dad,
thankyou for being such a wonderful role model to me.
I thank God for you! Yay you!
(:

Yesterday was the day i made the worst dream
i dream that people died,friends
one by one slowly
all of them died right infront of me
petrified as i was
feeling sick and pale

The very first person who called me was,Marcus
i turned around and smiled at him
all he said was ''bye''
wondering why he said that i chased after him
the faster i went,the faster he went
and than a car came,''BANG''
i never saw him again
all i did was cry

i stood there not being able to move
trying to move away from where i was,i couldn't
one by one
i saw people died
people so close to me
so dear to me
so close to my heart
scary
i don't know how or what to express how i was feeling
everything felt so real,so clear
i felt everything,everything

i woke up
breaking up in cold sweat,with tears rolling down non-stop
coudn't sleep after that
all i did was wondered
so how real will it be?
when i fall asleep again will i be dreaming about it again?
cos this isnt the first time.